Faith and Feelings

"I'm on Aslan's side even if there isn't any Aslan to lead it. I'm going to live as like a Narnian as I can even if there isn't any Narnia."

--The Silver Chair



I've been thinking alot lately about the obedience that God wants me to have even with a lack of "feeling" that he is there. The fact is that he is there, even if I don't know it or feel it. Could it be that he desires for me to long for him even in the driest of deserts? Too search for him even when it's to dark to see? To reach out and know that his hand will find mine, when I can't find his? I think so. I think he blesses our longing for his peace and love. There is an empty cistern in my heart that can only be filled by Christ's love. Any other content will leak out and taint my fragile heart. But the love of Christ will stay constant and overflow becoming a wellspring within my soul.

Lord Jesus saturate my flesh and soul with you all consuming love, fill me to the brim with you.... Place in me a longing for you that cannot be quenched by anything of this earth. Bring me close to you and hide me beneath your wings, take me to a secret place and hide me from thine enemys. Protect and watch over me all the days of my life.

Amen.