Just a Pic.....

Nothing to say at the moment so here's a cool picture I took this weekend.

That's Why He Hurt His Hands

I constantly have to remind myself of Gods grace, of his patients, or his unbelievable need to take care of us and save us...from ourselves.

Save me oh lord, carry me from this broken place.
This place I call home,

But you call prison.

Your Victory oh lord, is finished.
Redemption awaits,

Seven Fold.

Protect me oh lord, from thine enemy.
Who lies within,

Deceiving.

Your grace covers me, oh lord.

I long to be, Free.

Double posting? What the !!??

Ok this double posting nonsense has to stop. I've been posting equal posts on both of my blogs because of my inability to choose between the two. They both have good points. I kind of like the wordpress.com blog better but.... all my blogging buddies are on blogger! And I feel all alone over there.. :( I may just stay with blogger. I don't know... this sucks! I hate making decisions.

By the way, I'm an idiot.

And with that, till next time.

Boston in the Rearview

While this picture has no spiritual signifigance whatsoever, it is a cool picture of me driving away from boston in a black convertable Mustang doing about 70! Nuff said. :)

This week was one of ups and downs… I’ve been pretty good over all and yesterday I heard from God. I feel he told me something big….but I’m not sure how to process it yet. Have you ever heard something that you think was from God but you don’t have any idea what it means? Maybe you don’t see it at all, or even believe it? That’s basically where I am right now. I guess that’s not a bad place but it is a bit frustrating!

Saturday My youngest daughter fell down a flight of stairs! She went down on her face then flipped somewhere in the middle and went down the rest of the way on her back. Somehow all she suffered was a fat upper lip…. amazing. If that was me I’d probably be dead, ha.

And with that a quote for the day!

The trouble about trying to make yourself stupider than you really are is that you very often succeed. -C. S. Lewis

Seeing the Forest

Sometimes it’s just so hard to take your eyes off the trees, to zoom out and see the bigger picture. I find myself sometimes spending amazing amounts of time studying a single point of life while life zips on past me in every direction. Meanwhile I’m standing there in a stupor wondering what the heck is going on. I can’t fathom the things I’ve missed while focusing on the wrong things, I think God brings things into our life sometimes just to show us something or to draw our attention to him but instead we end up thinking that the very thing he has presented us with is THE point rather than, HIM.

Why can’t I just get my brain out of this world long enough to see the bigger picture? I’m an eternal creature…. An everlasting being, created for a purpose. Not just ”a” purpose but a purpose that’s greater than anything we can see or understand.

God, show me what I need to see….. fill me with a longing to follow you, to understand you better,to love you and know you more. I pray that this false self inside of me would be revealed and brought to the alter of your love.

Don't hate me.....

Ok don't hate but I think I may have moved my blog to another service! Seriously it's pretty cool. So check it out.

http://burningalive.wordpress.com/

I'm not positive I'm making the switch.....but I'm pretty sure. :)

Resting and New Life

So it's been a looong time since my last post. Mostly because I just haven't been at work and that's normaly where I update my blog. I can't say that's the only reason I haven't been posting though, no I haven't been medicating in my usual habits and area's I would normaly go but I haven't really been very happy of late. Now I know for you people who read this for the most part know that my wife just went through a surgery and came out wonderfully. And for this I am happy. But on the heals of that I have started to have some medical issues.....(Which I won't go into here:) Which has had me really questioning what the heck God is doing! I do not do good with doctors at all....did I say at all....I mean AT ALL! Now I'm in this state of waiting for answers about what's going on and I'm not doing very good trusting God on this. Some of the diagnosis's I could get could really suck. Really.

So I am pretty much freaking out.

I know whatever the will of God is for my life that I should be willing to go there. I'm just having a really hard time coming to that place where I can say, "Whatever you do God, it's ok with me". Saying I trust him with it all has been difficult to get past my lips. I have got it past them...but I feel like my emotions take over so much and try to get me to worry again. Anyways, I do believe I've started rambling. Pray for me. Thanks.

It's the Little Things

After arguing with someone at work for way to long about science and evolution I have decided that I have failed in the area of evangelism. I don't know how many times these kind of situations need to happen before I finally get it but I'm starting (and I do mean starting) to realise that you just can't argue someone into believing anything. It's the heart we need to get to, not the brain! So I said alittle prayer for her at lunch and that probably did more good than all the babbling I did. Ha. Well it's about time for me to go home so I bid you farwell.
I probably won't post for a bit, I'm off from work until next Thursday but I'll try to post before then.


“Miracles are a retelling in small letters of the very same story which is written across the whole world in letters too large for some of us to see.” -C.S. Lewis

The Conductivity of the Human Soul

Ok...so it's been a while since my last "real" post. I have a tendency to hide when I'm struggling with things and I guess that's what i've been doing. I feel like I fell of a truck this week and possably got ran over by the back tire. I'm not saying I'm doing super great now and all is well, what I am saying is that I'm not going to allow the enemy to keep me in a place of bondage anymore. The amount of work God is able to do in me is directly related to my willingness to surrender the dark places of my heart and soul and allow him to reside there instead. I have not been very willing to do this lately. I found myself this week wondering how I got to this place, wondering why I'm so disconnected from God, why I don't seem to care? For some strange reason I found myself in a bad place not knowing how I got there or why I was choosing to stay. So yesterday I choose to leave that place even though I felt like I wanted to stay there. Today has been better, not without issues but better. So perhaps i'll start posting again! haha.



"The terrible thing, the almost impossible thing, is the hand over your whole self--all your wishes and precautions--to Christ."

--Mere Christianity

Go get this CD.....it's wonderful!

Ok, I admit this is a lame post but I've been trying to avoid speaking lately and this seems a perfect way to further my cause. :)