Oswald and Coffee

This really hit the nail on the head today....Todays Oswald....
The golden rule to follow to obtain spiritual understanding is not one of intellectual pursuit, but one of obedience. If a person wants scientific knowledge, then intellectual curiosity must be his guide. But if he desires knowledge and insight into the teachings of Jesus Christ, he can only obtain it through obedience. If spiritual things seem dark and hidden to me, then I can be sure that there is a point of disobedience somewhere in my life. Intellectual darkness is the result of ignorance, but spiritual darkness is the result of something that I do not intend to obey.
No one ever receives a word from God without instantly being put to the test regarding it. We disobey and then wonder why we are not growing spiritually. Jesus said, "If you bring your gift to the altar, and there remember that your brother has something against you, leave your gift there before the altar, and go your way. First be reconciled to your brother, and then come and offer your gift" ( Matthew 5:23-24 ). He is saying, in essence, "Don’t say another word to me; first be obedient by making things right." The teachings of Jesus hit us where we live. We cannot stand as impostors before Him for even one second. He instructs us down to the very last detail. The Spirit of God uncovers our spirit of self-vindication and makes us sensitive to things that we have never even thought of before.
When Jesus drives something home to you through His Word, don’t try to evade it. If you do, you will become a religious impostor. Examine the things you tend simply to shrug your shoulders about, and where you have refused to be obedient, and you will know why you are not growing spiritually. As Jesus said, "First . . . go . . .." Even at the risk of being thought of as fanatical, you must obey what God tells you. -Oswald Chambers

Nothing Really.......

So today was another good start with an early wake up and a ride to the park. I deviated from my norm of sitting by the water and praying and went up a trail that goes around the lake. It was nice, I still sat by the water for a while then rode up the trail a ways and then came back down the same way before heading home. Yesterday was one of the worst days i've had in a while. Constant attacks from the enemy and me falling on my face. I was condemning myself right away and feeling like a loser when God prompted me with a thought. In my own words, "Stop listening to all that (and in the words of C.S. Lewis) damned nonsence". Today is a new day and im clean in the all covering blood of our savior. Thank God we have a lord and savior that washes us in grace and mercy everyday. Amen.

Not Today

So I got home late yesterday after a long day of recording at the church and then going to a friends house. So needless to say I did not get up early, In fact I got up late because I didn't even check my alarm and it was set for 7:30.....which isn't good when your suppose to be to work at 8! I did have some time to pray on the way in to work though (One good thing about having to drive 20min to work). I want my walk this week to be a good one. All for now....

It's late and I can't sleep.....

So it's like 12:18am....Sometimes I wish the enemy would just lay off for a while, I guess that's not going to happen anytime soon. Lord, I pray that you would strengthen my heart. That the truth that lies in you would manifest itself in my life. That I wouldn't back down from the attacks of the enemy. Oh lord, I long to walk in the peace and joy that you desire for my life and for the life of my family. I come against the enemy with all the strength of heaven on my side, your chains can no longer hold me captive for the Lord Jesus Christ has set me free. Amen

No Getting Up Early Today.....

So I couldn't sleep last night until like 1:30 and my daughter decided to fall out of bed in the middle of the night and scream so I choose to not get up at 6:15am this morning. Today has been good though... I had a short prayer time this morning and time to read Oswald so all is good. If been going through the book Waking the Dead and it's really speaking to me.... My heart is really split and needs to be bound back together by the Holy Spirit. It's only through him that it can be done and I find trusting him with it is the hardest part. This part of the battle is the hardest for me, trying to teach myself to see with the eyes of my heart. I feel like I have to beat down my flesh every 5 min. maybe less :) But one thing is becoming more real to me day by day....God is good and he truly wants his glory revealed in me. May it happen....Amen.

Day 3 A Journey to the Center of the Heart

So this morning was similar to yesterday morning in that I got up early went for a bike ride to the park and sat by the water. I prayed this morning and felt more of a peace about where I stand right now in the kingdom, which is a good thing. I have been feeling like I've been treading water in the middle of the ocean waiting for a boat to find me. I guess that's not how it works. :) Or maybe the boat was always there and I just choose not to see it. I think what I'm really suppose to be doing is fixing my eyes on the boat and walking on water.

One Day at a Time....

This morning I got up early went for a bike ride to the park. I sat next to the water with the morning mist rising from it and spent some time with God. There's something good about spending time with him in the morning, starting your day just alone with him. We had a good talk and I said some much needed things, a good start to the day overall. Untill next post.......

A New Day

God's funny sometimes....Sometimes I wonder where he is, sometimes I wish he'd go away, well, maybe it's me that's funny! I think God's consistancy is what really throws us as people...were so inconsistant with our faith and commitments that we have a hard time understanding something that never waivers, even when it seems like he should. I'm starting to make some lifestyle changes in my schedule and actions. God has once again shown me that while I'm looking at one little place in my life that I need to clean up...he's looking at the whole picture. I've been avoiding looking at the whole picture for a long time now, I'm going to stop that....starting today.

First Post, Little to Say.......

Ok, so i'm on the blog wagon.... I'm not really sure why but we'll see how it turns out I suppose.
I guess here I'll post my inner thoughts, some photo's, some prayers and some quotes from famous dead authors. Sounds like a hoot. :)